Hi, this is my story and since I was little I have always been curious about women’s clothing, it all started when I was about 8 years old. The first times I used feminine articles were for challenges, and I had mixed feelings about it, I could feel the adrenaline, I thought it was for the challenge but later I realized that it was for something else.
I have a little sister and when no one was home, I would wear her clothes, and since she was a little girl she had princess dresses, so those were one of the first clothes I wore. Seeing myself as a sweet girl caused me a strange pleasure, but little by little I climbed to do more interesting things.
A short time later I tried my mother’s makeup, as I was a little girl I didn’t know how to use it so well, I only put on a little red lipstick but it was enough to make me look pretty. On a couple of occasions they were close to catching me dressed, or wearing makeup due to my carelessness and although I invented excuses that got me out of trouble, I’m sure they already had an idea of my tastes.
For the same fear of being discovered, I stopped dressing and promised not to do it again (as if I could really do it) but some time later the desire returned. This time with a little more time alone at home I was able to experiment with more things, I did a complete makeup based on tutorials that I had seen, and the truth is it turned out quite well than I expected.
Similarly, I wore women’s underwear for the first time, beautiful bras, sexy panties and tight leggings. I even found a sexy lingerie that I did not hesitate to wear. The truth was it was exciting to feel the clothes between my intimate parts, being able to touch the soft fabric of the panties is simply fascinating.
To simulate boobs, I stuffed my bras with my socks and I loved how my beautiful round breasts looked, even though they were fake I felt like a real girl. That was the opportunity to wear party dresses, swimsuits, skirts, etc. My sister and mother’s wardrobe was limited, I wanted to be able to try on something leather, some sexier skirt, even if it was a wig, but even without these things, I was happy to dress up.
On one occasion I was so excited that I felt liquid dripping abundantly between the panties I was wearing, I got scared and fixed it as fast as I could, but that has always been a problem when wearing clothes that are not mine hehe.
Over time I took photos of myself dressed and the truth is that I looked quite beautiful, I did not recognize myself in the mirror as a man, but as a beautiful girl. It was always a chaos to put everything back in its place so that they would not suspect what I was doing, (I am more and more discreet with that) but it was worth it.
-Note: For those CD girls who are just starting out, I recommend putting some cloth or paper in their intimate areas so that when the inevitable happens they don’t stain their clothes in case it’s not theirs, that or wearing underpants underneath, although it ruins the experience of having a panty on.
It wasn’t until high school with a friend that my feminine personality took on more strength, as always it all started with a “challenge” in which if I lost, I had to dress from head to toe as a girl, obviously inside I was dying to do it, but I acted like I didn’t.
My friend was planning everything she was going to do with me and I was giving her ideas of what she “wouldn’t want to do” for her to consider. Among those things that she planned, she told me that I had to have a female name, to match the male name, she called me Jennifer, at first I felt weird and I rejected it, but then I fell in love with the idea.
One day while at her house she told me that she would still fulfill the bet, and that I had to dress as a girl at that moment, she took me to a salon where they put on my makeup, but at that moment more people began to arrive, which made me feel uncomfortable and nervous, when they finished my makeup and we went back to her house, my worry and stress was so much that I collapsed and told her that I couldn’t continue with that, (I know, let one of the best opportunities pass of my life but I couldn’t handle the pressure of being seen by so many people).
In the end all that happened and it only remains as an anecdote, at that time I did not know what crossdressing was and I thought that what I was doing was bad and embarrassing, I did not tell my friend my tastes, I thought it was something too strange to tell others.
At home I had less and less time alone to be able to dress as I wanted. But at night, thanks to the internet, I started watching tg videos, makeup videos and things like that, so I was never that far from Jennifer. Over time I tried more women’s underwear, and more elegant clothes, although it was more difficult because I was getting bigger and some clothes stopped fitting (I even ripped some clothes because they were too small for me), and that’s how I’ve endured several years.
But just doing research I realized that my tastes were more common than I thought, cross-dressing was something that many people practiced, that made me feel relieved, being able to see such amazing transformations has inspired me to one day do something like this. I was also able to find several sites that offer prosthetic breasts and lady parts that I obviously want to get (they are a bit pricey so it will take me time to save up).
I realized that my wishes to be Jennifer are not bad or strange, it was until recently that I faced myself and promised not to judge or repress myself. Now I see my more normal situation, I know that I feel comfortable being a boy, and like other boys I like girls but I also love dressing up as a girl.
I work more and more on that part of me, I have many things that I want to do as Jennifer, I want to learn how to do my makeup like a professional girl.
I never had the courage to go out (plus everyone in my neighborhood knows me and it would be hard to go out), so it’s on my bucket list.
As I said before, I like girls, but with the closeness that Jennifer has had, it has made me curious about what it would be like to have a boyfriend, who treats me like a lady, kisses me passionately knowing who I am, I would like to know what it feels like when a man makes love to me, dominates and compliments me as female (although so far I haven’t met anyone who likes a cross-dresser girl).
Also, I want to buy feminine items like prosthetics to shape my body, nice wigs, nail polish, etc. Along with that, I hope to finally have the wardrobe I’ve always dreamed of (dresses, skirts, bras, sexy lingerie, costumes).
Until now I have not met any other transvestite and I think it would be something of a lot of learning for me (although there are transformation houses “nearby”, I have not had the opportunity to go or enough money).
I am about to enter university and I want to be able to find my own personal space to be Jennifer freely, to be able to explore myself as a woman, live my own intimate feminine experiences and be accepted as a true lady, today more friends know who I am and what I love and like to do, they have supported me and I am just waiting again for the moment to be more feminine than ever, to be a true lady.
~Written by Jennifer~