You are neither male or female. Yes you are spirit having a human being experience.
Which ever road that takes is decided by yourself from whatever influences have manifested into your subconscious mind since you were conceived.
This could have been your Mothers desire to want a baby girl by talking to you in the womb and even dressed in pink attire after you were born.
So your subconscious mind had already been given programmes to run before you had a say in the matter.
This is partly why it’s not your fault and you should not feel guilty about it.
As you grow up your up your feelings are mixed and causing confusion.
So now your looking for identity and society wants you categorised .
Your inner feelings which are very strong drivers are in conflict with what outer forces expect.
All this noise in your head makes you reach for any comfort you can find.
Your attachment to your mother and seeing her loving, gentle mannerisms makes it an easy choice to follow.
You start to experiment with clothing and enjoy the soft soothing fabrics against your skin and thus it snowballs from there.
Every time you add to this experience the harder it will be to for yourself to live up to a so called male image.
One can only imagine that when men shake off their macho alpha male ego they will make the world a better place and a perfect role model for future generations.