Since childhood I was interested in crossdressing. I used to dress up in my sisters clothes. After I finished college, I started living in an apartment. I began saving money to buy more feminine stuffs. I bought lot of dresses, under garments, shoes and wigs. I would usually spend my time dressed as a girl inside the apartment.
I started to get quite good at putting on makeup and my transformations were also getting better. The desire to crossdress kept growing strong. I started to go out in the balcony where other people could see me from the road and that would give me a huge rush.
One night, I decided to step out from my apartment and go shop at a department store. I got dressed and put on a nice makeup. It was Friday night so most of the people were out in my building. My apartment is on the 4th floor. I decided to to take the stairs because most people would use the elevator. After I got ready, I grabbed a purse and got some money, my apartment keys and my phone. I wore short heels because this was my first time out in public.
So I was finally ready to go out. I was wearing a white knee length dress and black pantyhose. My hair was already long at that time and that was one of the reason I looked quite passable as a girl. So I got out of the apartment and locked the door behind me. The hallway was empty. My heart was beating quit fast as I started walking. Then I took the the stairs and slowly made my way down to the exit of the building. Just then, I saw a group of people coming in my direction.
I got a bit scared and tried to act normal. When they passed me I was quite relieved. Then I was out in the open, it was an amazing feeling. I bring out my phone and pretend to use it, just so I could spend some time like that. I put the phone back and started heading to the store which was around 20 blocks away. I had walked that street for so many times but this time, It was just so different and I really felt like I was a girl walking down the street. The street was quite empty at that time and that made me feel more confident. I had practiced a lot to walk in heels so I felt my walk was feminine enough.
I finally reach the departmental store. As I was about to go in, my phone rang. I checked to see who it was and it was one of my friend. I couldn’t speak at that time because people could hear my voice and get confused. So I switched the phone to silent. I get few more calls for him.
Then I receive a message which says my friend was in my building and if I was free to hang out. I got scared immediately and I just got blank, not knowing what to text him back. After some minutes, I figured I should text that I was away to a relative house and was busy for the evening.
I had always kept my crossdressing a secret, so nobody knew about it. After I sent the message, I went inside the store and started to shop around. I went into the women’s section and checked out different clothes and lingerie too. I was having the time of my life. I decided to try on some dresses, so I picked three dresses and went to the the changing room.
I tried on the dresses and I really liked the red one which was a mini dress. I decided to buy that and after taking a look on few other things, I decided to check out. As I reached the counter, I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. I got completely surprised to see that my friend who texted me before was also in the store.
My heart began to to beat faster again and I felt very nervous and to make things more difficult, my friend comes right behind me to checkout. I try my best to you look casual and get on with my shopping but I really was feeling very nervous and quite scared.
Finally, I make the payment and without looking back once, I rush out of the store. As I was walking out, suddenly my friend calls from behind. “Hey, turn back.”. I could feel goose bump all over my body.
Did my friend really recognized me. I resist to look behind but he kept calling me to turn around. So, with all the courage I had, I turned around. I look at him and he is looking at me. I feel completely embarrassed. Then he comes around and with a smile, shows money in his hand.
“You forgot you change, here you go.”. He said.
I stood numb, smiled back and nodded.
He then nodded back and left. I was so close to fainting. I was sure, he recognized me but he didn’t. That was really scary. I started walking. After I was around 1 blocks away from store I looked back to see if my friend was still there.
I couldn’t stop wondering whether my friend really recognized me or not. This would be so embarrassing. This was quite a scary experience for the first time going out as a girl.
I rushed back to the building and to the stairs. I reach my floor and as I was in the hallway, I saw the neighbors from the opposite apartment come out. I couldn’t get into my apartment because they would see me getting in and that could raise some suspicions and they could recognize me too.
So, I simply walk right past them and pretend to walk down the hallway. As soon as I stop hearing their footsteps, I turn around and when I saw no one was there, I ran back and opened the door to my apartment and shut it behind me. I felt a huge relief to be back in my place and this first time felt like a crazy experience but I liked the rush I had experienced that day.